Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The Meaning Behind the Magic

Today I began musing about what photography means to me. I have received more invitations to take portraits than I can keep up with, but I seem to shy away from them unless they're for my closest of companions. In trying to discern why I might do this, I looked over my body of work and realized that I use Photography as a way to speak without using words. I can explore so many facets of life behind the lens, things that are unspoken and sometimes even forbidden. I can discuss life, love, politics, religion, obsession... all without opening my mouth. Which, as some will attest to, is not a bad thing ;) I can explore myself and my place in the world with a tangible form of introspection. The emotional connection that I have with my images is not properly expressed in the words available to me. I am consistently surprised about which of my images speak to others and how they interpret their meanings based on their own personal experiences. Every individual is unique, no two experiences are the same.

I am currently preparing three submissions for a gallery. It was initially a struggle to decide which ones to submit for consideration, but I am fortunate enough to have a strong support system who were able to give me insight into which of my pieces were more likely to resonate with others. I am also blessed to have already sold all 3 pieces to wonderful, supportive people! I am very grateful for all the feedback, praise, suggestions, etc. I receive on my work. I am surprised at how objectively I can take criticism on something that feels like so much a part of me. I think that is because I have a constant desire to improve. To me, if you are not bettering yourself every day, you are as good as dead. Never, ever be satisfied with the status quo. Strive. Always Strive. Strive to be truly alive.


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Window to the World One of the images I am submitting to the Clark Gallery.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Dear Yukari

Yukari Yume



My little heart, my precious one
To me you'll never be outdone
You love in ways I envy so
You know I'll never let you go
Your smile sets my world ablaze
I love you in so many ways
I love the way you talk and trill
And how in small things, find a thrill
You bring such joy, my little bug
It makes me grin to glimpse your mug.

Akitas Set

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Three Nights in an Eternal City

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The first day was a whirlwind of lights and sounds and smells. Clearly, the best advice I was given was ever given in this life was to "get lost." Spagna metro station has become a hub of sorts for me; a jumping off point. Alive with a sea of people framed by breathtaking architecture. The Spanish Steps seem to collect bodies like moths to a flame; a picturesque spot to rest a moment while the bustle continues around you. All of the finest Italian brands boast immaculately dressed out store fronts that both awe and entice. It is easy to see why the inhabitants of this enlivened metropolis observe a mid-day siesta when inundated with such excitement and flurried activity before and after.

At night, on my balcony across from the Vatican City, there are times where the stillness and silence are absolute. No traffic or voices, nothing but perhaps the tinkling of some treasured wind chime of Murano glass marking the passage of a calming breeze. It is amazing how peacefully a city so rife with life and adventure can slumber. I expected to meet a great many new people on this journey, but in the stillness of the consuming solitude of night, I have also seemed to encounter myself. In these pre-dawn moments, as I listen for the first sounds indicative of an awakening city, I find myself a most enjoyable companion.

Everything about this journey tests the senses and the psyche. There is a constant dichotomy at play here that serves to keep one guessing. On the metro, my fondest form of travel outside of my own two feet or perched upon the broad back of an equine, a gypsy boy no older than my young son of ten plays the only song he knows on an ill-used accordion, his hand held plaintively outstretched at each conclusion. While it may seem the most heartless cruelty to deny him meager coin, somewhere nearby one that watches may be using him as a diversion or a way of studying how your money is kept so as to accost you with the information given an opportunity. Tomorrow, it will be another boy with the same neck brace and accordion pandering to commuters. The novelty soon wears off and the tune grows tedious.

I feel a certain anonymity here: by day, just another tourist with a camera come to claim my own lifelong memories of the eternal city, home of the Romans. One of the first things I did upon my arrival was to acquaint myself with the local grocers and farmacias. At breakfast, I am provided with coffee and a light repast, which serves to remind me that Romans are not as fond of breakfast as we Americans are. During the course of the day, I snack on sweet croissants, mozzarella and Salami Milano. I would rather spend my few precious Euros on sights and experiences than lavish meals, but the scents of the finer restaurants and trattorias cry out to me, beckoning my stomach lead me inside their doors and under their awnings. At some point later in my trip, I look forward with eager anticipation to indulging myself in the sumptuousness of local fare. I look forward to each day with as much enthusiasm as the last, ready and willing to devour the art, culture, beauty and history of this land like the most elegantly prepared secundo. The first light of dawn is just beginning to kiss the horizon and I am apprehensive, but excitedly so, to greet another day in one of the most inspiring places I have ever been.

The hills beyond my balcony glitter, as if inlaid with countless precious gems; twinkling in a way that is both captivating and whimsical. I feel as if I were to leave my heart here, it would never cease to be comforted by the simple beauty of such a sight. No picture can capture the magic of those dancing lights, as they undulate against an obsidian sky; a testament to the existence of man in distant hills. It is a skyline worth waking very early or staying awake very late to behold. This sight is just one of the many that frustrate my camera, emphasizing the need to live apart from the lens and capture them in memory.

Italia Collection

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Photography/Hearts

So, I'm totally taken with my new DSLR. It opens up a whole new world of creativity that I was keeping bottled inside and it was slowly driving me insane. I am by no means a photographer and will probably never refer to myself as that. I own a camera, that's it. I don't use photoshop. I don't manipulate every photo before I post it. I think people who do that are fooling themselves into thinking they're awesome at photography, when really they are just adept at photo editing. Either way, photog or graphic designer, I'm more a pure-ist when it comes to my photos. I'll crop or maybe adjust the brightness, but even that is stretching it. I've shot over 8G of JPEG photos so far and I'm loving it. Definitely giving my WD Passport a workout. I'm learning more every day; I've stepped out of the land of AutoFocus and I'm not sure if I have the option that I'll ever go back! It's just fun. Fun, fun, fun. I've noticed I've been on a pretty even keel emotionally, too, since taking up the Canon. It's been a great investment, and I know it will pay off tremendously this summer. I am so excited about giving my other passport a workout, as well. I don't want to jinx it tho, so until I confirm my tour, I'm keeping things "close to the vest" so to speak. I'm sure once all the arrangements have been made and there's no going back, I won't be able to keep it to myself anymore. I'm crossing so many things off my bucket list this year, which is amazing. At some point, maybe I'll post about my progress. Regardless, I'm having the time of my life in doing so and plan for more of the same! This new job cramps my schedule a bit, but it leaves my weekends free for travel and there is a LOT of that planned. It's a big wide world out there and I plan to take advantage of this weather for as long as it holds! Besides... I can study for the GRE just as easily floating in a Canoe down a lazy river while someone else does all the work as I can in my bedroom, Right? I didn't realize how much I missed my freedom and being able to just get behind the wheel, ending up somewhere interesting and not at all the norm. I missed cruising with the windows down, the radio up and my puppy's head hanging out one window. One thing I've learned is that feeling like no one loves you isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of opportunity. I never realized just how many people really love me, because they choose to, not because they are supposed to or because they feel they have to or "should." The worst thing in the world is "shoulding" love to death. Who cares what you should do! What do you want? Be real, be you, be loved. Forget the dumb shit, because that's all it really is. :)